easy?

Whoever said that it would be easy for me to make friends in this place was mostly wrong! I'm fun... I'm hip... I'm cool... I am a little odd at times...(lots of times actually). I like people! Why don't they like me here!? This is like the latest I have ever come back from break. I am really thankful for the friends that I have made. I ate super with Sarah today! Great time! Love that girl! She has other people that she loves here though. I want to feel good about coming back to San Marcos. I don't know if that will ever happen. I want to stop trying so hard to make friends and let some of them make me! Maybe I will give up. Maybe I will be a scary recluse. I could grow my fingernails out really long and never take baths. It really wouldn't be that hard to be a recluse. No one calls me. Just call me Emerson, only without the writing skills. I will be okay though, I know I will. Today I went running at the hospital. After my run, I went to a big open area and laid down on my back. The clouds were moving all around in the sky. God reassured me that He is in control. I know He is. Sometimes it is just a little hard to adjust.

bibity bobity boo

If i had a magic wand... I would make all of my dear friends live in the same area so we could live life every day together...I would suck up all the pain in this world and fling it into the fire... I would still keep all the seasons but make flowers grow all year along the roads...have a designated horse and carriage day where everyone would have to ride slowly in the carriage and talk to the other people in the carriage that they get to face...bring the double kiss cheek to US...