easy?

Whoever said that it would be easy for me to make friends in this place was mostly wrong! I'm fun... I'm hip... I'm cool... I am a little odd at times...(lots of times actually). I like people! Why don't they like me here!? This is like the latest I have ever come back from break. I am really thankful for the friends that I have made. I ate super with Sarah today! Great time! Love that girl! She has other people that she loves here though. I want to feel good about coming back to San Marcos. I don't know if that will ever happen. I want to stop trying so hard to make friends and let some of them make me! Maybe I will give up. Maybe I will be a scary recluse. I could grow my fingernails out really long and never take baths. It really wouldn't be that hard to be a recluse. No one calls me. Just call me Emerson, only without the writing skills. I will be okay though, I know I will. Today I went running at the hospital. After my run, I went to a big open area and laid down on my back. The clouds were moving all around in the sky. God reassured me that He is in control. I know He is. Sometimes it is just a little hard to adjust.